I know only too well the pain and heartbreak that we feel when we say goodbye to our first love, it hurts, big time! For most people this happens in our teenage years or early adulthood, but for some of us it can happen when we’re older too. Either way, it sucks! And it’s also something which often re-surfaces in therapy for many people.
As I was sitting thinking about this I remembered those feelings and I became inspired to write and draw. The poem I wrote below is about feeling heartbroken, but also about an accompanying sense of freedom and growing up…… a very bittersweet feeling indeed, sad yet hopeful.
The image to the left is what I drew. I think this is actually my own 15 year old inner child, and perhaps the feelings I had as I sat and thought about this were coming from her.
I believe we all have smaller parts inside of us that resurface at times throughout our lives. My inner 15 year old in particular is around right now, so I decided to listen to her and this is what she had to say ❤️
Poem – Goodbye
You are no longer here with me
Yet you linger on my skin
I close my eyes
I feel your touch
A warm memory from within
A thousand miles between us
Yet clearly I see your smile
Your eyes, your lips
You are in my thoughts
Very much still mine
My body, she remembers
My soul won’t forget
My skin tingles when I close my eyes
I feel you in me – passion, love and fear
Grateful and no regret
You loved me more than anything I’d known
Then you left me on my own
You broke my heart
Opening it up to the world
Painful but necessary, no longer a girl
My first love you will always be
Loving me, breaking me, setting me free
A tender love, fragile to hold
But from it emerged a woman
Someone more whole
Open, vulnerable, tender
Yet courageous and strong
You came, then you went
Now I’m capable of true love,
And I know I’ll find the one.
By Maria Albertsen – October 2019
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